Population of non PLU had all disappeared i think... personally... deeply. hmm... seems like i cant figure out any one among my friends or my list. :(
I think i am loosing confident of believing in there is someone that i'm searching for for so long.....
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Sunday, November 9, 2008
More problems Post Op
"You have had your gallbladder removed. Why do you still have pain and gases?"
DEAR asked me that weeks ago and seriously I can't answer. The Dr never give me clear answer abt it. I knew his intension is good that he don't want to see me complaining that i'm in pain and suffer. The Dr can't help me much. I had to find my own effort to find out more info through internet.
“The most common problems, apart from actual pain are impaired digestion: bloating, gas, heartburn, constipation or diarrhea. You are already having trouble digesting fats. So why would removing the organ that regulates the metabolizer of fats improve your digestion? It may help with the pain, but know that 34% of people who have their gallbladder removed still experience some abdominal pain.”
And I am among the 34% of those patients still having those annoying symptoms. And 2 days ago, the pain is acute midnight and I do not know how to react to it. That is not the first attack but this is the most painful one after the operation. Tried my very best to fall asleep again but sleeping pill and pain killer don't work well this time. I knew that won't help much d. I fell down n hurt myself twice after the op but the Dr said that wont cause those acute pain. The root has to be seek. The truth need to be found.
“Abdominal pain, nausea, gas, bloating, and diarrhea are common following surgery.” Postcholecystectomy syndrome (after gallbladder removal syndrome) may include all of the above symptoms plus indigestion, nausea, vomiting and constant pain in the upper right abdomen. These are also gallbladder attack symptoms. Up to 40% of people who undergo gallbladder surgery will experience these symptoms for months or years after surgery. "
I asked myself how is this possible? Why I am the unfortunate one? The discomfort is horrible. I do not how to tell. I can't express it. I can't be pretending that I am ok. I felt sick to live with it.
"Functional biliary pain in the absence of gallstone disease is a definite entity and a challenge for clinicians." which is to say that at this point in time, they don't really know what to do with gallbladder problems that aren't related to gallstones and "Often, following cholecystectomy, biliary pain does not resolve..." which means after gallbladder surgery you may just be stuck with the pain. "
“The most common problems, apart from actual pain are impaired digestion: bloating, gas, heartburn, constipation or diarrhea. You are already having trouble digesting fats. So why would removing the organ that regulates the metabolizer of fats improve your digestion? It may help with the pain, but know that 34% of people who have their gallbladder removed still experience some abdominal pain.”
And I am among the 34% of those patients still having those annoying symptoms. And 2 days ago, the pain is acute midnight and I do not know how to react to it. That is not the first attack but this is the most painful one after the operation. Tried my very best to fall asleep again but sleeping pill and pain killer don't work well this time. I knew that won't help much d. I fell down n hurt myself twice after the op but the Dr said that wont cause those acute pain. The root has to be seek. The truth need to be found.
“Abdominal pain, nausea, gas, bloating, and diarrhea are common following surgery.” Postcholecystectomy syndrome (after gallbladder removal syndrome) may include all of the above symptoms plus indigestion, nausea, vomiting and constant pain in the upper right abdomen. These are also gallbladder attack symptoms. Up to 40% of people who undergo gallbladder surgery will experience these symptoms for months or years after surgery. "
I asked myself how is this possible? Why I am the unfortunate one? The discomfort is horrible. I do not how to tell. I can't express it. I can't be pretending that I am ok. I felt sick to live with it.
"Functional biliary pain in the absence of gallstone disease is a definite entity and a challenge for clinicians." which is to say that at this point in time, they don't really know what to do with gallbladder problems that aren't related to gallstones and "Often, following cholecystectomy, biliary pain does not resolve..." which means after gallbladder surgery you may just be stuck with the pain. "
Why these irresponsible answers can be given by those specialists? I'm in pain n discomfort with those symptoms. I scare for more tests. I'm worry. Life seems to be tiring and lonely. And dealing with my office Guarantee Letter and seeking for 2nd opinion isn't easy as well as we do need to thought of those panel thing.
Truth is not easy to be known and digested. And frankly I am scare d as every single facts that i had to accept before and after op is disappointing and upset me a lot .....
Thursday, October 30, 2008
My painful experience
I think most of the readers of this blog knew that I just gone through an operation. Removal of gallbladder. This is the 4th operation I had in life but this considers a major one and I had suffered the most.
Pre-op : Before the op, I thought I am having gastric pain as I always had. But the condition is getting worst though the dr gave me some japs and medication for the pain, it doesn’t seem no improvement e at all. The pain I had causes me couldn’t sleep at nights I felt terribly pain and the uncomfortable feel all over my body is torturing. I felt hot sometimes that I had to sleep on the floor to cool me. At another moment, I felt cold and had to cover comforter. I am running up and down to find a best spot to sleep. But is really hard for me to fall asleep with the pain that I couldn’t know why. Finally, went for a details check up, there was the whole cluster of stones in the gallbladder wall and duct causing the acute pain. But, my bad luck seems continue as I couldn’t get any guarantee letter due to the Raya holiday. So, medications to help to relief pain a bit and waited for the GL to be ready. My dearest and housemate were so worry that I will mumble in my sleep that I am pain, hot and cold but luckily dearest is kind enough to be my “remote control”—on and off aircond, blanket me and make me hot drinks.
Op: DEAR and housemate need to take turns to on leave on my op day due to their tight schedule that day. Everyone is worry for the lousy service in the hospital. They tried to b with me during the “peak” hour, right before my op and after to make sure that I am well taking care off. I had suffered until the op, but goodness the suffer didn’t stop right after the op. I was in cold for an hour in the OT room after I was awake from the op. No one from ward is free to bring me back. Climbing from bed to another until my room is taking my life. The pain from the op is even worst. I felt the pain even I am not moving. Cant get up or and felt pain getting to toilet. It was like horrible. DEAR keep my lips moist with wet tissue. I was under drip therefore no food or drink allowed for more than 24 hours. DEAR cant do anything, just accompanying me quietly seeing me in pain. I get him off the hospital as late and monsoon season during that time. And there, the stupid nurse didn’t take well care of me after I get to toilet, I bleed due to the force on my drip. Such a bad hospital having me unattended, spoilt drip roller and under dosage pain killer. When others beloved dears and kawan came bringing my favorite fruits, I am just like dead fish lying there.
Post-op: Finally I was discharges after 2 nights in the worst hospitals I had. DEAR’s sis and mum taking well care of me. The ride back home and meal is like the warmest wishes they gave. Under series of medication but seems the recovery is super slow due to my bad health. Bleeding, internal inflammation, causing me taking another 2 course of antibio and medical leaves for more than 2 weeks. The acute diarrhea pains, the vomiting, painful wounds, were with me till today. Recovering stage is like ages compared to a normal people taking few days or a week to get back to work. I think is time for me to get a good advice to find out abt my blood profile that is suspected abnormal. But seems like the dr couldn’t get me any good reference.
Pre-op : Before the op, I thought I am having gastric pain as I always had. But the condition is getting worst though the dr gave me some japs and medication for the pain, it doesn’t seem no improvement e at all. The pain I had causes me couldn’t sleep at nights I felt terribly pain and the uncomfortable feel all over my body is torturing. I felt hot sometimes that I had to sleep on the floor to cool me. At another moment, I felt cold and had to cover comforter. I am running up and down to find a best spot to sleep. But is really hard for me to fall asleep with the pain that I couldn’t know why. Finally, went for a details check up, there was the whole cluster of stones in the gallbladder wall and duct causing the acute pain. But, my bad luck seems continue as I couldn’t get any guarantee letter due to the Raya holiday. So, medications to help to relief pain a bit and waited for the GL to be ready. My dearest and housemate were so worry that I will mumble in my sleep that I am pain, hot and cold but luckily dearest is kind enough to be my “remote control”—on and off aircond, blanket me and make me hot drinks.
Op: DEAR and housemate need to take turns to on leave on my op day due to their tight schedule that day. Everyone is worry for the lousy service in the hospital. They tried to b with me during the “peak” hour, right before my op and after to make sure that I am well taking care off. I had suffered until the op, but goodness the suffer didn’t stop right after the op. I was in cold for an hour in the OT room after I was awake from the op. No one from ward is free to bring me back. Climbing from bed to another until my room is taking my life. The pain from the op is even worst. I felt the pain even I am not moving. Cant get up or and felt pain getting to toilet. It was like horrible. DEAR keep my lips moist with wet tissue. I was under drip therefore no food or drink allowed for more than 24 hours. DEAR cant do anything, just accompanying me quietly seeing me in pain. I get him off the hospital as late and monsoon season during that time. And there, the stupid nurse didn’t take well care of me after I get to toilet, I bleed due to the force on my drip. Such a bad hospital having me unattended, spoilt drip roller and under dosage pain killer. When others beloved dears and kawan came bringing my favorite fruits, I am just like dead fish lying there.
Post-op: Finally I was discharges after 2 nights in the worst hospitals I had. DEAR’s sis and mum taking well care of me. The ride back home and meal is like the warmest wishes they gave. Under series of medication but seems the recovery is super slow due to my bad health. Bleeding, internal inflammation, causing me taking another 2 course of antibio and medical leaves for more than 2 weeks. The acute diarrhea pains, the vomiting, painful wounds, were with me till today. Recovering stage is like ages compared to a normal people taking few days or a week to get back to work. I think is time for me to get a good advice to find out abt my blood profile that is suspected abnormal. But seems like the dr couldn’t get me any good reference.
After this op, I am a person without gallbladder. Diet intake is important. The inconvenience to dine with me is there. Fresh sashimi, plain salad, steam dishes are the limited choice I had. And my application of PR is an unknown due to my health… Felt really down……….
Thursday, October 9, 2008
A Birthday Dedication to DEAR
Today is my best friend birthday. He's 28, looks 18, and sometimes he's going on 58, sometimes 98, depending on what the day demands :P.
He's been my best friend for nearly 10 years, my soul mate since the day we were at high school. Probably one of the funniest people I know, he never fails to bring belly laughs. He understands and knows me better than I know myself.
When I look into the future, I see our two gnarled, arthritic hands intertwined, my kids playing around with their God father n mother watching over, and I know that we are destined for a long and happy life together.
Happy Birthday DEAR. You are my DEAR, my best friend, and you deserve much happiness!
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Zzzz-less
I cant sleep. though med that suppose to make me sleep was taken... i still awake.. yeah, i am sleepy but i cant sleep. the pain through the back is acute. i will try to zzz a bit... i cant wake dearest up. he just sleep after accompanying me for my "medical breakfast". i wonder this pain will last how long....
Saturday, September 20, 2008
If
My insomnia is getting worst these days. Is almost 2am and I'm not lying on bed and resting. My mind is occupied. My body can't relax. I felt the stress. My beloved fren:
If love can change things, i wish i can give more.
If care can help a little, i don't mind giving all.
If patience is they key, i have to learn it through.
But... i do not know what to do.. worries and pain, do not help at all. Is not easy to handle.. is heartache to see the suffer.. i wish i can hold you to sleep, i wish i can share a little more, what i want to see is a healthy and happy you, my love.
Monday, September 15, 2008
Little wish
Is pain to see two souls drifting apart
The love is not faded
Just do not how to express to each other
Just do not how to show the care and love
Give and reach out, my dear
In our heart the loves meet again
I really hope so……
The love is not faded
Just do not how to express to each other
Just do not how to show the care and love
Give and reach out, my dear
In our heart the loves meet again
I really hope so……
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