Year 2007 --- Reflect and Review

YEAR 2007 -------- hmmm.... cant really know what year is this year, just knowing that it going to end soon. The mice are going to take over for the coming year.

Reflect and review 2007 :
Too many incidents happened throughout the year. Too many. Too hard to put everything in words how i feel and how i went through all that. I kinda love the year and on the other hand, I kinda hate it.

JAN-FEB --- BLANK and I cant think of any at all.
MARCH --- Love and cares that I can offer and give isn't enough and too "limited" in a way in this month. I can only do my best to offer best prayers and support. My heart is too painful for his suffer and pain.

APRIL --- The first vindication. The first love. The feelings is just right.
MAY --- The time had come. The reveal of the truth. Un-mask and stripping. We showed the inner of ourself. We cried. We joy a bit. The love growth stronger. The bond ties again. Thousand miles away. I scared. I worried. I lost a bit. I was being loved. I was being cared. I felt the comfort in their arms. I learnt to be strong.

JUNE --- While prayers and wishes growing, worries and tension never lesser. The more you know, the more suffer and pain you need to bear with. I'm carrying the cross but I knew I'm not alone. Arguments and silent treatments hurting each other.... A hug and a kiss.... We are friends again! The path we walked, the journey we treasured..... tied us back in heart.
JULY --- Time to go. I'm back to beloved again. I miss him so much! I hope i can be by him side helping and care for him too. But i just cant split. I'm really sorry dear. Back to reality. Life still need to go on. Nasty and harsh words from those that you cant really cut off the ties with... the feelings are horrible... my heart is painful.... i felt the loneliness... i am scared.

AUGUST --- Another bom. Another sickening part in life - Work isn't easy. Decision made. I should leave. But why cant they just let me leave in peace?
SEPT --- The 3rd bom, i lost a friend. I already split into pieces n still yet to bear with all this!

OCT --- I walked out of a fantasy in relationship... I try to let go. And is never easy. I do doubt. I knew i'm impatience. But the road isn't there for me.

NOV --- I started with my new life. A new car. A new responsibility.

DEC --- Enjoying being myself. Love from friends are more meaningful than the love that i had lost and let go. I appreciate and love them more and more. Small hiccups..... big problems....not easy to handle. Pity those that was hurt indirectl. Appreciate the ones that love me and suffer for me. I am too lucky to have them in my life.

Summary:
Hiccups make me grow. Problems make me mature. 2007 Isn't easy. I fell. I drown. I cried. I was carried again -- By those that loves me. By those that I love them too. They walked by my side. They support. They love. They care. Something that I lost is lost. Something that I should learn to forgive and forget. Something that I need to let go. What is important is NOW. I learnt how to appreciate and love more . And I found that life is just simple............with love around me. I felt blessed. I felt the joy in heart. Though there are more many challenges and hard times in my life.... but I knew I'm not alone anymore! Thanks for all the love and cares. Thanks for the comfort and the kiss. I love you all, my dear!

The time is near................

The time is near.... it finally came. Something wrong with my body which i dont know what caused that.. suffered from severe pain last week until I am scared and called beloved, seeking for help. He was shocked and asked to take pain killer. I ate 2 tablet and pain started to relief and i fall asleep in pain. Then when i awake still have to bear with uncomfort feeling. It doesnt go off and started to follow by pain on the other part of the body. I felt the uncomfort and frustration. Easily get angry and tired. I shall wait for the check-up soon. I felt scared and worry. I hope the problem isn't that serious. I hope the side-effect wont be too much... Time to face it and get rid of that. I've been avoiding that too long.

2nd Day - SG Trip

2nd day- 9th Dec, 0830, rainny...

Woke up ard half pass eight ... then lying on bed with my new softoy snow ball. Too lazy to wake up. Dunno what's the plan for the day. So, just "bergolek-golek" doing nothing until dear woke up to shower and get himself ready.

"Morning"

"Morning"

"Wanna go church?"

"Church?! Yeah! What time?"

"Hmm...1030am"

"Wah, now already 930am! Why u didnt wake me up earlier??!!!"

I took a quick shower and get myself dressed-up in 15 mins before we walked to the nearest bus station toget bus to nearest MRT. Reached the church ard 1030am and rush in. I dont like to be late for the service or i rather not going.

"Errmm....where is the alter ar?? Why i cant see?"
"Over there"
"Which one? The stage ar?"
"Yeah..."
"Hmm...But nothing there le!"

Okay, this is the Church of Our Saviour, in Queentown, SG. A Charismatic Church. First time to this kind of church. Started with singing, the leader even speaking in tougue. My dear already told me not to be suprise and feel scared. They are very strong in praying. Then, follow by sermons and singing from a 12 yrs old little blind girl. Very touching and good! He gave a comment "hmm... isn't it sounds better than the clubbing yesterday? heh?" I just gave him a smile. Haha... Service finished around 1pm. Took my "Branch" at the food court nearby. Meet nice people. The fish ball's noodle tauke gave me extra fish balls. The beverage auntie refilled the drink for me when i accidentally poured out the herbal drink. O_o (I think I'm too cute! LOL)

After meal, dear dropped me off at Jurong Point for shopping and he got back home for doing laundry and shower. But after 30 mins walked around, i got nothing there. Too crowded. Too many "so so" goods. I feel like the whole mall is like The Store! Hehe....

After met him back again, we went of to city hall and Raffles place. Hanging around in this two malls. He got me a christmas gift --- shopaholic & baby :). Then, walk ard for some photo shooting before meeting up beloved and his beloved for dinner @ the place which i dunno..7 course dinner. Nice presentation. Nice food. Good environment. Overwhelming waiter. Overall.... EXCELLENT!!!! :) Habis makan, jalan to OG plaza to get myself a OP T-shirt. Again, my beloved and his beloved hanging in the men's brief department. (see... in your favourite department again!) Me pula lepak and trying the rocking MBT shoes. I cant really walk with it. In fact, is horrible experience. My dear said i need to learn to walk liao... jahat betul. Habis makan, shopping, time to balik tidur. Beloved going his way and myself with dear in our way. Then he sent me to the interchange before he heading back and i got back by cab. 1115pm reached my friend's place safely. Tiring but a happy day! :)

P/s: I hope i can visit SG again............ after dear check out how to get to the SG's lion statue, the sentosa island etc..........:) May be 6 months later?

SG day 1

I've been down to SG with beloved last weekend. For....Shopping and visiting my dear :P. Yeah... :P I took a day off and follow my beloved down to the south. He is fullfilling his conjugal duties and I'm just 3 8 around. :)

Everyone told me the christmas decoration is super nice in SG. But... hmm.. found it so so. A bit disappointing. Or may be is a rainning season there or my expectation is too high. I dont know. For me, is so so. :P

Start my shopping only around 1pm after a long wait for my dear to settle his "duties" in JB and due to the jam at Checkpoint, i've been waiting more than an hour. But i do appreciate and thank him for keeping his promise though he is not feeling quite well. Then, i start my shopping. Due to his first time in Orchard, my 2nd time there. So,we are like no sense of direction. I just drag him around - Atria, Paragon and Taka. I dare not to go to those places that I hardly know the name as i worried that we will get lost in the area. I felt super tired after 3 hours of shopping before meeting up beloved and his love one. Oh ya.. forgot not another cute uncle - HJ. Meeting point, as usual --- mens' brief department. haha... :P

We walked a bit for getting my Christmas present ------ A HUGE, CUTE, "SNOW BALL" -- is the name given to the soft toy. Prezzie from beloved and his KH. Wow... i am the happiest person that day. hehehe...

Then.. movie.. oh ya,, makan first before that. Again, some drink after the movie before clubbing. Suprise me for the uncle HJ. Super cute in the dance floor. Cool and cute guy. i like him. Then after a couple of hours there. dear teman i balik to ZZZZZZ... others also balik zzzz. we are too tired.

P/S: only day 1... day 2... see how la mood esok dan ada masa tak. hari ni dah tak larat ... :)