10 years

“Cheryl, our ex-schoolmates are doing a BIG, GRAND gathering in Hyatt this coming CNY”. My housemate told me that one night. “Hmm… gathering? For what le heh?” I asked in acuh tak acuh je manner as I am so not interested in that. “10th year anniversary wor” “WHAT?! So lama liao ar? Tak perasan pun!”

10th years…. "人生得二知己已足矣" -- Having two closed friends in this life is very blessed and enough. Buddy told me this years back. I do not catch that meaning too much at that time but I knew it now. I’ve gone through up and down in life with my dear and beloved buddy (I even knew him more than 20 years!). Our relationship is just like closed family - to be there for each other. For me, our friendship comes from the heart. It forms a link to our soul that cannot be broken. It connects so strongly that even death does not sever the cord. It connects the physical with the spiritual and creates an energy that is impossible to describe.

Is a special bonding between us. Though there are many out there asking why doesn’t any of us pair up to be an item since we knew each of other so well? No words can explain this, because we knew this is the best and most comfortable way for each of us. We appreciate the relationship that we have. We enjoyed this best gift of God that can never be tied with string.

Understandable that in every friendship there will be arguments. We know each other well and because we're sure that our friendship can survive any argument, we do fight, argue and hurt each other. But luckily we did not get into silly fights that turn into red-hot arguments. Even there is some arguments or fights, a simple word, a hug or even kisses will get us out of blues.

Is not easy to have each other in this way. 10 years isn’t a short period. I hope I can have many more 10 years with them. Is a love and friendship journey that I wish to hold their hands, walk with them side by side throughout my life, sorrow and happiness, I wish to share with them!

Thanks for the 10th years of pampering and love. Love you guys lots! T_T *Tears dropped

Choosing the PERFECT path

Life –paths for us to walk through and live on. There might be many turning along the way and no doubt all of us are taking different pathways in life. We are working hard to achieve our goals and dreams in life. We do always want to go after something that looks good, attractive and perfect. Everyone does. That’s the norm for everyone to hope for better lifestyle.

I received a call the other day and that makes me think lots. He told me that he realized that he is so not interested in the current job. He might want to think of other pathway if the employer does not confirm him then. I asked only one question: “You said this is the job that you want all these while, that can let you learn, practice your skills and let you grow. Why not anymore?” “Ermm… not really suitable after I’m in it.”

In life, we always go after something that we think that might suit us, which look attractive and good. We will fantasize it to make it an excuse for us to grab for that. We can even sacrifice some other important things in life in order to get the ONE that we think that might be the BEST for us. Just like we choosing other half or choosing a job, we look for the best without deeper analysis and understanding. When we’ve it/in it, everything started to change. Today we can love it, tomorrow we might hate it. We are being too naïve and childish. We do not realize that we are actually loosing something more important in life along the way when we blindly made a decision to get the PERFECT things that isn’t suitable at all.

Do not wait till you lose something then you start to regret. Appreciate and love what you have when you still have it. Or else…. It will be too late..

Bancian........... BRA

Normally this is a perv thing but for me is quite ok. Yeah, I'm running a bancian again... (dear, i think i get it right this time). BANCIAN again but this time is for BRA. Hehe... kindly help in this and looking for the BRA :P

A) Sex/Age

B) How many bra's do you own?

C) What colors and ur age to see the differences

D) Why do you own this/these? (optional)

Loneliness

CNY is near the corner. And honestly I didn’t feel any joy or happiness deep in my heart. It should be a joyful occasion. It should be celebrated. It should be treated as a holiday. For me… it’s a sickening occasion where I should think of: Where will I be? Where it will be celebrated? What will happen during these days? What should I do? What can I do?

When my phone rang, I picked up. I don’t hear any single word. It made me wonder. It made me worry. It made me feel uncomfortable. I can’t concentrate the whole day. I hit my toe and it became black.

When the sun set, I headed home. My head was spinning. My mind was floating. I felt the loneliness. I felt the pain. I felt scared. I felt tired. I hide under the blanket. My tears dropped…

Memories are harder to forget

I'll do what I do

You'll go back to being you

and will both forget

this phase were going through

I'll forget ur laugh and u'll forget my smile

We'll both forget the times we spent together

while u'll forget the memories

i'll forget ur name and we'll both forget the unbearable pain

I see u with her

u see him with me

we've forgotten each other

u r just another face i see.

The harder you try to forget, and you'll just remember.

Is it normal, is it not?

...... Is simply an unanswerable question.....

Research : RESULT

The result was out after i have done my bacian among my frens. Thanks all for your kind co-operation and help!

Welcome the super undies queen : Daniel. H

Still awaiting for his calculation. But he has the most collection among my subjek. Trust me... Others pls... gambate!

Research : Undies...

Doing a research/calculation now ... how many pair of undies do u have ?

I really wonder... how could one owns more than 50 pcs!

Insomnia

I am awake at 3am and blogging. Huh... i must be crazy.The fact is --- I can't sleep. I do not know what to do. I do slept a lot after the "pill" from 11pm - 3 am and I can't sleep now. HELP me !!! I do feel tired but my head is too heavy. Can't put it to rest. What happen to me?!

• Counting sheeps -- Yes, I did. but i do have funny ideas for example: the sheeps are afraid to jump! :P
• Soft Music --- Even worst, i found that annoying... too noisy.
• Milk --- Helpless for my body.. doesnt work
• Blue and calm Sky-- someone suggested to me to think of any calm, blue sky, but.. a no no
• Essential oils -- i had dozens but seems like i don't quite like it burning.
• Off all lights --- of course i did. But I also scared of darkness.
• Sleeping pills --- I tried years back, and is useless!
• Sleeping supplements --- Yet to test the fullest of it's efficacy but seems like i am still awake after the pill.

I think i had tried every single solutions but still failed. Any other good one?

Year of Mice -- 2008

Started the new year 2008 celebration at Desmond's with the others. Enjoyable and fun. Feel happy for the companionship of beloved and others. Feel pretty sad though without my buddy with me. I hope I can have him too with the gang. I can just ring and wish him a happy new year. Hope you are happy and fine, dearest.

The day started quite ok but quitely i was a bit down in heart. Feel bit down for the unreachable call and sms-s. But it was over after an email. I seen it through. I realized something. I start smiling again for my fool-est mind. Spent the whole morning with my grandma and uncle's family in Damansara. Then went off to pick my beloved to Andriez's pool side party. The guys are too slow so i suggested that we swim first. Become "a fish" for about 45 mins before leave for dinner with beloved's family. Then, jalan-jalan at my favourite "activity" -- pasar malam. Miss the old days with buddy in the night markets almost everyday!

Then...... balik and zzzzzzzz as i'm tired like mad. However, the following days and days are full of some disturbances and annoying calls and voice messages. Pretty sienz and stress. Luckily beloved and buddy are there to help me out. Sorry dear, awal awal tahun dah kena minta tolong hang to help up and sama-sama jalan kat jalan yang berduri.

Hope the road ahead wont be too hard for me to walk alone....