TOUCH

Touch – a way of showing concern.
Touch – a way of showing sincerity.
Touch – a way of showing love.

For me, touch can be the above.(But beware that it also can turn out to be molest :P). It depends who is the provider and meaning that it carries. For me, I won’t be hesitating in showing mine to my love ones.

Beloved pat me on shoulder when I felt a bit down the other day. It comforts lots. I felt the warmth and love that he gave. I do missed buddy as well. Kisses and hugs from him always cheer me up. I think mine also will affirm him that I do really care and love for him. Playful touch to my dear will tense him up . Lying on his shoulder when I need comfort really makes me want to thank and love him more.

Do not hesitate to show your love to your love ones today! A simple touch means a thousand!

Out of Work

Been jobless for few days as I had tendered my resignation letter earlier on and get earlier release (of course my penny-pinching boss was asking me to take unpaid leave). A shocking day for me. Shocking in the sense that I still holding some projects and the deadline was just 2 days after. But, anyhow, is his decision, I had enough said. I can take a break before my new offer comes in :P.

Learnt really a lot in this job. Learn more about people. Learnt about friendship. Learnt about life. I gained. I did also loose in certain ways. The consequence is high to bear. I felt upset. But I can’t do anything much. Different perceptions. Different directions. We need to go to our own ways. May be we will meet one day. But definitely the friendship is fading……

SMILE

A friend of mine asked me recently:

“Why I can’t see your smile anymore on your face?”
“My heart is sick. That’s why I can’t smile.” I told him that.
“Let me check and cure it” he offered.

I chuckled. Thanks dude but I just have to live with it, at this moment.

Smile… a sign of joy and happiness. Smile… is from the heart.

When we grow up, problems keep flushing in to our life. We have to carry the cross and all the responsibilities with us. That's make us grow. That's take away our happiness. A little thing can make me feel blessed these days because I start to appreciate what I had in my life. A little action can make me feel touched. A little thing means a thousand.

I hope I can smile from my heart again, one day...

Three musketeers --- BELOVED, BUDDY and ME

A little girl passed me a comment when beloved and I were in a charity breakfast sales at church last week.

"You both very good "kam ching" ar!"
" Yes girl, we are. Any prob?"
"No ar... seldom see boys and girls so good ma"

I encounter lots of this comment from time to time. People seems like can't accept that boys and girls can be good friend. From a young girl to an old woman. They will give this kind of comment.

I can say myself is open-minded enough to certain kind of level. I can go out in pair with a close male friend and there won’t be any “chemical reaction” between us. I can even stay in a room with a really close male friend which I knew that I am “safe” with him. Many things that I can accept to a certain point but for others point of view they might think that I am a slut.

For my relationship with my really close ones, is really special from others. Won't be any chemical reactions :P. Buddy, beloved and I are best friends for years and we are getting closer and closer. Bond ties between us are strong enough to bind us together. We tend to drift apart with our own ‘secrets’ but when the times came, we shared and we are now even closer. I felt so regret when we tend to kept ourselves out from each other with those “secrets” and going to our own way. When we really knew the real us, time seems like too short for the friendship. My I heart is pain to see the sad truth. I can’t take that but I have to learn. I learnt to accept. I do not know what will it be when the time really come. I do not know what will happen, what I will do, what can I do. But I just been 'ordered' that I must be strong enough to face all that. I hope I can keep to my words.

That’s the love that growth in this special friendship. That’s the love among us. A special and precious friendship which make me the happiest person. A unique one that makes me grows and shine. I love you guys very much for giving me all this.

A Bad day on the first day of Ghost festival

Everything will be going back to a slow down... from running up and down: Damansara-Serdang, UM-Serdang, Brickfields-Serdang...etc. I suppose will be cooling down for a while.

Sometimes, things just happened. My hard disk crashed,car broke down, frustration at work all happened in a day. The first day of Ghost festival. A really bad one. I realised that i just can laugh with tears when all that happened. I think I am too tired facing all kind of "accidents". My tears falled when I thought i cant retrieve all my data from the hard disk that gave by buddy which is already 3 years old. All my great memories and important data were inside it. Thank God for me to save it out at least for the data that is important for me. Then, it died.

I lost control when my tyre burst when i am driving. Luckily there was a turning and I had slow down from 120km/j in a highway to only 60 km/j in the place where the accident happened. I had to drive all the way to get to the mechanic when i cant find any petrol station with a functional air pump.

A really bad day but I had gone through it. I hope for a better tommorrow.

UP to the HILL -- DAY 2

With the tiredness and worries, I woke up early and prepared to have breakfast with C3's God father. When we reached there, he was already there just started to have his meal before going to work. We ended up till around 845am as C3 is famous among those auntie auntie. They can have his the whole day telling stories and chatting. He is patience enough for all that.

After the breakfast, we check-out and heading to ROSE GARDEN. Hmm... We walked in just like that without paying for the entrance fee as C3's god mom is really close with the owner of the garden. Hmm....A bit pai seh. Like eat without paying. :P

Snapping photos here and there before headed to cactus farm for my dear to grab some cactus for his "snoopy(s)". Oh ya... bought some sun flowers which is really nice and blooming. cheap though but dear paid for that. Hehe...

We said good bye to C3's God mom and headed for lunch and going down to the hill. Hmm... 2 piggy slept and left me accompanying C3. But... I was too tired and fall asleep for about 15 mins before we reached to a really nice waterfall. Wow... the water is cooling and the air is so fresh. Spend around 20 mins there before we headed to a "hot spring" spot. C3 brought me there to let my legs having a nice pampered in the water for blood circulation. However, we need to depart after receiving a call from my uncle.

We reached around evening to my uncle's place. Spend about an hour there and went off to have our dinner. Able to grab some noodle for grandma nearby before we reached home. Huh... really tiring. more in my mind and heart rather physically. But.. I do enjoy and appreciate lots.

Really hoping for another trip. And I hope with more relaxing and less burden in mind.

HOPE AND PRAY

I’m back for about 2 weeks but time passed by like really slow and it was like a decade. Two weekends were occupied with holidays and now things getting to slow down back to normal. Hmm… I can’t say is normal. I can’t say is not. Too many things happened and now I was like a lost child. My mind is full. Now, I let go some of my problems but my mind won’t rest for others. I am sleepless in the night. My heart is painful. My breath is unstable. Did HE hear my prayer? Did HE love and care of him? No answers. No reply. I am receiving pressure. I can only convince them. I need to lie to comfort. As.. everything is un-answerable. I can only PRAY and HOPE…

UP to the HILL -- DAY 1

Middle in the blues.... manage to have some fun in SG with beloved and friends. Not going to blog in details as he will blog about it. Conclusion is really an enjoyable trip but still with some doubt and worries whether my mission which accomplished in SG will be received by buddy or not.

A week later, been up to Cameron Highland with dear, HP and C3. C3 is the one driving us up all the way up to the hill. He planned all this for me and HP. Such a lovely guy. We departed at 6am and stopped at Ipoh for the famous "dim sum".. Hmm... for me is like so so... can't complaint. :)

On the way up hill, visited a tomato packaging factory but is off operation on Sat. Heading up to the fill for lunch with his god parent. Weather not so chilling as told. May be I am still not use to the hot weather here. Visited strawberry farm, tea farm, waterchest farm. Having great time relaxing.

Managed to get back to the rented apartment before the rain poured. Prepared food for steamboat at night. Enjoyed the fresh vege and a dish to share about is the "ba li tong" (hokkien). Sucked the shell's snails meat until my tounge became painful and cut by the sharp edges. Hmm... I think I was using the wrong technique as C3 and dear seems dont having that problem. C3's god father just joke that u knew how u eat this, then u will know how to french kiss. haha... Then i start wonder, my technique of eating should be right ma, using the tounge. Hmm.... i doubt i doubt :P.

After the makan makan, C3 given out presents to his god parent and all the siblings. Nice seeing them with the smile and appreciation on their face. Hard to see couple that is still loving after more than 15 yrs of marriage. Really envy them for a loving happy family.After they left, I suggested for a night walk nearby. Hmm... a quite town. No more activities after 11pm. Sienz...

After the walk, everyone was tired and headed to rest. My night was sleepless with the sudden attack. I felt the stress and tiredness. My dear just accompanying me without saying a word. I knew he is worrying and care. I am just too tired and sad to say any words. Is lovely to have the companionship. Really appreciate and love him more.